Small, Slow Steps

I am full of excitement....I don't even know how to contain myself.  Things are going relatively good for us Lockharts.  Big changes and uncertainty are in the horizon, however.  It's causing emotions leaving me extremely unfocused and neglectful in some areas...including prayer.

This year I am purging not just things but bad habits too.  I am taking small steps.  Changing everything at once would leave me unmotivated and tired before I even start.  This may sound extremely silly to some people.  And maybe it is, but I have to start somewhere to be the wife and mother I want to be.  

So, over a week ago I have started making my bed.  Told you, small steps.  That is been my only goal.  In the past, I have made the bed and not made the bed.  There would be stretches of time it was made for nearly a month and other stretches of time that it was not.  Even though it takes less than a minute to do, and it cleans up the room almost rather quickly, I still neglect doing it most of the time.  This is a habit that I would like to instill in my children, but there is NO way I am going to get the results I want if my bed is not being made daily.  

Chris noticed.  My kids have noticed, too.  It has only been a week, and today I almost said to hell with it.  But I did it anyway.  Minutes after making the bed Amelia said, "Mommy, I like your bed."  In the end I was glad  the bed was made.

Yea, yea I'm sure I can get a few tips from you perfect OCD perfectionist ;)

The house is still a wreck.  Lego blocks everywhere, laundry baskets full of clothes, dishes in the sink, and stacks of things throughout the house needing to be sorted and thrown away.  It's overwhelming.  It's much easier to ignore it all by refreshing my news feed or shopping for maternity clothes to my trusty Hewlett-Packard.  So, I instead of ignoring it I'm trying one step at a time.

The next step I have made is bedtime for yours truly.  I'm a night owl, that will never change.  As of last night though I'm going to make the responsible decision to go to bed by 11.  Stop whatever I'm doing, reading, watching, and go to bed.  Even going to bed can leave me laying there for hours, I must try to make morning more bearable by getting to bed earlier.  Pregnancy will make this difficult, but those nights that I just can't fall to sleep that time will be filled with extra prayers.

I haven't decided what will be my next step.  Hopefully it will come to me.  It still needs to remain small since these new changes are not quite habits yet.  Maybe more spiritually focused?  That's probably where I should have started.  

I may desire showroom home free of all clutter; I will probably never have it.  But, with some effort, I hope to create a peaceful environment with controlled chaos in our home even if it is "lived in".